Life is all about ups and downs: For everybody, it just varies how we deal with it. Do not forget that apart from the good things, also not so good things happen behind every front door. Divorce, family trouble, death and sickness.
Life is not perfect and it does not have to be. In an average household both partners work for 4 to 5 days a week. So why should you overbook your weekend too? Is it really that bad if your colleagues ask you: ‘What did you do this weekend’, and you have to answer: ‘Not that much.’ That is no problem! However, they often ask: ‘Why not?’ Well sometimes I just do not want to do anything! Life is stressful enough. Everybody needs rest sometimes. After a stressful period I want to take the afternoon and evening off, to lay down on the couch together with a bottle of wine and a movie.
Apart from the fact that everybody seems to go out and do stuff, there are also some things we do not like to talk about. One of these things is sickness: whether it is cancer or any other disease. We do not usually discuss this. But why? Why should life be good all the time? ‘I am sick, but everything is alright!’ But in the meanwhile you are in the hospital on a weekly basis. I believe we can talk about this subject more often.
With the focus on ‘can’. And that is what I am going to do now. Nine years ago I had surgery because of a presumption of Endometriosis (Endometriosis is a disease whereby tissues that looks like mucus membrane of the uterus (endometrium) exists outside of the uterus. These tissues then exists on your peritoneum and on other organs of your abdomen. It grows, and can grow into your organs which can cause chronic infections and a variety of complaints. Pain in the abdomen is very common and fertility reduces as the adhesions grow.)
Nine years ago they saw a little anomaly, but nothing special. Last friday I have been informed that I have to test it again. I do not know how it will go, but the insecurity is terrible. You can only establish the disease after a while, since it is only visible after a while. So for now I just need to wait.
I want to make it clear that I am very happy with my life right now: I look forward to the future with the people around me, I am proud of the boring days on the couch and I enjoy school. I think my life is perfect for not being perfect. However, it hurts that this happens. But just like my dad, who is doing well right now, I want to stay positive! Without lows there will be no highs. I keep enjoying everything, maybe even a little more.
The song of this week is: Racoon – Oceaan. It does not need any further explanation when you hear it. Nobody, absolutely nobody is perfect. Embrace your weaknesses. Be happy. You will have setbacks, but you will overcome them eventually!
Love, Renée
