While I read a book, my mind wanders. My eyes read, but my brain don’t remember the sentences. I am thinking about life. My life. Thinking of what life will offer me. No one can look into the future, unless you are clairvoyant. 😉
Where will I end up?
I often think about life and the future, maybe because I’m 25 years old now. But maybe it’s the control that I want to keep. Since I was young I have loved control and goals. If I have a goal, I can fill in how I will achieve that goal. For example: I always wanted to go to a certain high school. I already knew this at the age of 8. I remember sitting in the back of my mother’s car and every time we passed that high school I said out loud: “Look mom! I’ll go to school there later!” I don’t know exactly why I wanted to go to that school. After primary school I actually went to that high school.
In the meantime I already had a new goal: becoming a judge for youth. This still is my goal and I am on my way. However, I doubt where I will end up in a few months. How long will it take before I find a nice job? Am I skilled enough and do they hire me? And so there are more thoughts in my mind.
Which people will be in my life?
I used to keep in touch with everyone in my life. When I was 23 years old I realized that this was impossible. Moreover, it costs a lot of energy. Certainly if you do not receive the same positive energy in return. Since then I have decided that I only keep in touch with the people who give me positive energy. In the beginning I found this difficult, because I felt guilty towards the people I didn’t send texts back. After a while, the guilt disappeared and I was completely in my new “habit”, so to speak. Currently I am very happy with the people who are in my life. I have very nice friends and would not miss them for the world. Hopefully they will stay in my life for a very long time.
Where is Mister Right?
Every girl dreams of Mister or Miss Right. Usually you have had a sketch in your head for years about what he or she looks like and what characteristics he or she has. My ideal prince must above all be reliable and have a dose of good humor. And if he looks pretty too, then that’s nice. I do not believe in “the true one.” I believe that you can form a perfect match with several men or women. It’s about having the same goals in life and being able to communicate at the same level. In this way you can grow together in life. If one is left behind in his or her proces, then that can start to wring. I am not an expert when it comes to relationships, but after much reading and thinking, this is what I believe in. And when Mr. Right shows up? In my dreams it already occurred a thousand times. Now the universe has to to this work.